I don’t know the exact reason that I do what I do, maybe its the innate sense of doing what I believe is right. I think all people do what they think is the “right” thing to do. In order to get what I want in life I have to put in the right amount of effort and show people that I give a damn about my life. In the past I have been self destructive by doing drugs or self harm. As of right now I am past doing those things. I believed that I have matured a whole lot, but I still have more maturing to do in the future. In order to be happy with my life I need to first be happy with myself, I can’t rely on another person for my own happiness, it has to come from within me!